Today had moments of meh….
More than normal.
You know those moments…. A little bit of okay-ness, a little bit of sadness, a little bit of feeling disconnected for no reason…. A bit of feeling off more so than on.
You try to grab a tool from your mental arsenal, to shift to a better state… and you pull it off. But shortly after, may be 30 minutes, may be a couple of hours later, you feel…. emotionally weighted. And back in that funk.
You actually start feeling guilty because nothing is truly wrong, you energy is just not what it normally is.
What triggers this?….
For me, my wife is away for work. And home doesn’t feel the same without her.
I also come across a video of a man who survived a shotgun, point blank, to the top left of his face. (Google Soft White Underbelly and you may find it.)
This man has no memory of it happening, doesn’t know who did it. Just woke up in a hospital several hours later and doctors told him what happened and he was lucky to be alive…. A medical miracle.
He was at the bus stop, on his route home. From what I recall he had a modest apartment and a life he was content with….
Now, he’s homeless, at least he was when the video was recorded. He has since passed… But he was still content with life. He’s forgiven whoever did this to him. He accepted his fate – Amor Fati.
Such an unfortunate turn of life for what appears to be a beautiful soul.
Yet I feel so hurt for him. And I know there are many out there impacted by unfortunate events who are just as thrilled to be alive.
They are the warriors we can learn from and hopefully repay them for their inspiration, the true display of a role model.
And as I my day was more meh, with hurt for another human who had since left this world, I turned to gratitude to shift my lulls.
I’m grateful for all that I have been blessed with…. a wife, a home, a car, 3 little dogs,….
The meh came from feeling unworthy to have such charmed things….
And sometimes, it’s okay to sit with the meh.
It’s there to potentially teach you something.
What that is, is up to you.
Extract the lesson from the meh and then send it on its way.
I’m grateful for you reading this….
